Blogging

I love writing to my blog! A long time ago, I used to keep diaries, for the purpose of keeping a record of things that happened, how I felt, people I knew etc. Mostly because I loved to write, but in hindsight, it provided some much-needed therapy! I still love to write. I just find myself getting impatient that I can't write nearly as fast as I can think...typing comes that bit closer!

I miss my diaries. I read back through old ones and all my thoughts and memories come flooding back. Times from 10 years ago are clearer and fresher than those from 10 days ago and it's all down to my diaries. What made me stop? I discovered a trend.

I discovered that I never really wrote when I was really upset. I wrote when I was angry about something, or really really happy, but never when I was feeling down for no reason, or really irritated with life. I never really had the will to! Over the last couple of years, I came to the conclusion that whenever I started to write about all the good things, that it was around that time that they started to go downhill. Possibly co-incidence, but after a while I was afraid to take the chance! So, since 2005, I haven't written anything remotely decent. Until my blog.

I find this different though. I write about certain things - random topics, never really about the day-to-day goings on. I like that. I like to think that that's what might make my blog accessible to so many different people. No one knows who I am, or what I do and therefore no one can just my blog, or indeed me, based on this. It's just words. I write whatever's in my head on any given day. It's not necessarily chronological, relevant, or even related to what's going on in my life when I write.

I'm sure it won't be this way forever, but right now I'm enjoying the way it feels. It's almost as tangible as one of my diaries to me!

Does this mean I need help?? Hee hee....Or is this my therapy?